My eleventh year of school is nearly over and it is not getting easier at all. Being a teenager, homework, and striving to have some kind of social life is difficult to balance. Personal issues, family issues, have created stress that disrupted my equilibrium. While most of my peers were worrying about getting a ride to a party, I was convincing my family to accept me. My personal life was getting to be so difficult to deal with. The largest obstacle that created the most stress was trying to express my sexuality to my family. Unfortunately, my family had difficulty accepting me for who I am—this added more stress onto my plate, on top of all of my school work and lack of social life.
Other than personal issues, school was not giving me any breaks. I was striving to meet deadlines and receive better grades. Freshmen and sophomore year flew by and were not anywhere near as difficult as junior year thus far. I was never satisfied with my GPA, so I have been working to raise it by doing level 4’s in almost every class. It did not take long for procrastination to take over. I continuously waited until the last minute to do 98% of my work. I gave the work all of my effort but added stress to myself for waiting last minute. I heard a lot about junior year being hard, but did not pay it any attention. Here I am now, staying up at 11 p.m. every night getting work done last minute. Never did I think I was going to struggle in school until junior year came along. I now fully agree with the seniors when they said junior year was going to be my hardest year. When I was younger, I loved school. I enjoyed going and doing the work that was super easy. Now, I immediately get behind pace from missing one class meeting and I cannot afford to do so.
My family has been my backbone all eleven years of school. My mom sees me struggle each and every night getting work done. She tells me every day she is proud of me and that makes me astonished. I love hearing someone important tell me that they are proud of me; I love the feeling. I am constantly getting asked the question “What are you doing after high school?” and it terrifies me. I know that around this time, next school year, I will be applying to the colleges of my dreams and patiently waiting for acceptance letters and or emails. I will always consider my junior year my hardest year of school before college. I know that all the work I do now, will benefit my future. I am excited to go above and beyond to reach my goal of getting a higher GPA. I know what I am capable of, but have to prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to. I will not stop until I get that high grade point average I am aiming for.
Other than personal issues, school was not giving me any breaks. I was striving to meet deadlines and receive better grades. Freshmen and sophomore year flew by and were not anywhere near as difficult as junior year thus far. I was never satisfied with my GPA, so I have been working to raise it by doing level 4’s in almost every class. It did not take long for procrastination to take over. I continuously waited until the last minute to do 98% of my work. I gave the work all of my effort but added stress to myself for waiting last minute. I heard a lot about junior year being hard, but did not pay it any attention. Here I am now, staying up at 11 p.m. every night getting work done last minute. Never did I think I was going to struggle in school until junior year came along. I now fully agree with the seniors when they said junior year was going to be my hardest year. When I was younger, I loved school. I enjoyed going and doing the work that was super easy. Now, I immediately get behind pace from missing one class meeting and I cannot afford to do so.
My family has been my backbone all eleven years of school. My mom sees me struggle each and every night getting work done. She tells me every day she is proud of me and that makes me astonished. I love hearing someone important tell me that they are proud of me; I love the feeling. I am constantly getting asked the question “What are you doing after high school?” and it terrifies me. I know that around this time, next school year, I will be applying to the colleges of my dreams and patiently waiting for acceptance letters and or emails. I will always consider my junior year my hardest year of school before college. I know that all the work I do now, will benefit my future. I am excited to go above and beyond to reach my goal of getting a higher GPA. I know what I am capable of, but have to prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to. I will not stop until I get that high grade point average I am aiming for.